You're adorable.

Lol thank you very much :)

Anything you want to know?

So are you fat or something?

Lol nope. Are you? ;)

Anything you want to know?

What's your HW, LW, CW, and GW?

I actually have a weird personal phobia type problem with people knowing my weight. I don't even let the doc or hospital weigh me.
GW 98ish.. I'm just going to keep losing until I'm small enough... lowest weight and current weight are the same

Anything you want to know?

Good things to remember

"Yay me!"

Today went really well. I'm super proud of myself. lol.
I started fasting again today because I've felt like a complete blob for the past week... and then guess what happened! My roommate ordered pizza :P Pizza Hut pan pizza with triple pepperoni. UGH!! I was so mad. That's the only food in the world that can beat me everytime! But!... long story short, I WON!!! WOOOT :D I didn't have ANY! *Happy dance*
I did have some sweetener in my tea later though but I'm letting that fly this time.
So my cals for the day = 60
P.S. Comment and tell me what your fail foods are. <3
Loves and kisses, K

Me, Me, Me!

For starters I have many names...
*Kat (Nickname)
*Kat Jones (Alias)
*Kursten Kulavik (Alias)
*Kirsten (Given name)
*Kitty (Nickname)
*Scooter (Nickname)
*Candy (Nickname)

I've had an eating disorder for as long as I can remember. It stayed pretty mild until I was about 16 and then I just stopped eating almost completely. I'm currently at my all-time lowest weight and dropping rapidly. I fast about 75% of the time these days.

I absolutely ADORE Ke$ha... even though she has thick thighs ;)
I hate chick flicks.
I love erotic literature. lol.
I'm 19.
I've been a porn addict since I was 13.

If you have any more questions, you can ask in comments or on formspring.
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Thinspo

First ABC Day

Today was horrible! Had to force myself to eat breakfast and lunch @120 each and then ended up eating like a pig at dinner.
Yuck. I feel disgusting. Trying really hard not to purge, but I kinda already did a workout purge...
Pilates for 30 mins, ten mile bike ride, walked four miles with 5lb ankle weights, and right now I really really want to go run a few miles :(
Ugh! 500 calorie day again tomorrow. I'm going to stick to 300 to keep myself from losing my mind. Damn it. I need some reverse thinspo plastered to the back of my eyelids!! lol
xoxo, K

Starting ABC Tomorrow

So this is how it goes. I'm so not looking forward to the high cal days :/
ABC = Ana Boot Camp
Day1: 500 calories(or less)
Day2: 500 calories(or less)
Day3: 300 calories
Day4: 400 calories
Day5: 100 calories
Day6: 200 calories
Day7: 300 calories
Day8: 400 calories
Day9: 500 calories
Day10: fast
Day11: 150 calories
Day12: 200 calories
Day13: 400 calories
Day14: 350 calories
Day15: 250 calories
Day16: 200 calories
Day17: fast
Day18: 200 calories
Day19: 100 calories
Day20: fast
Day21: 300 calories
Day22: 250 calories
Day23: 200 calories
Day24: 150 calories
Day25: 100 calories
Day26: 50 calories
Day27: 100 calories
Day28: 200 calories
Day29: 200 calories
Day30: 300 calories
Day31: 800
Day32: fast
Day33: 250 calories
Day34: 350 calories
Day35: 450 calories
Day36: fast
Day37: 500 calories
Day38: 450 calories
Day39: 400 calories
Day40: 350 calories
Day41: 300 calories
Day42: 250 calories
Day43: 200 calories
Day44: 200 calories
Day45: 250 calories
Day46: 200 calories
Day47: 300 calories
Day48: 200 calories
Day49: 150 calories
Day50: fast

I want this photo next to my mirror!

So Freakin Slut-tastic.

1:45pm on day two and still going strong. Gonna hit a party later and get my slut on. ;)
Spent an hour this morning looking through my vitamin stash and making a list to post within the next day or two.
As of right now, I need to go workout for a few hours and then it'll probably be time to take a shower and get ready for the party... Sometimes it's way to hard to find slutty people... I mean, here I am. Hot, horny, and completely willing to go home with almost anyone. Serious. But somehow I'll end up going to bed alone because people are too afraid to say what I just did. It sucks. I need to buy a t-shirt that reads, "Here alone for one reason... (If you can guess it, you win a very naughty little girl.)"
Lol ok, maybe that's not quite what it should say... but you get the idea ;)
We'll see what happens... xoxo

Why do I do this to myself?

I failed today. Big time...
It was the first day of my fast and I totally ate a lot. Seriously I could shoot myself right now. So to end my pathetic day, I looked up my ex and visited his wedding webpage. 2 days to go until he's stuck with that bitch for good. I feel like puking.
So to remedy? Laxatives, music (mostly Kesha), red wine, and a major sleeping pill od. That will at least get me through tonight... Tomorrow? I'll probably sleep most the day, blog and tweet, obsessive workouts once I get up...
I feel the need to be slutty right now. Lol. My booty call man is out of town though. Damn it.
Fasting again tomorrow.
THIS TIME I WILL MAKE IT!!!

Time for a new beginning.

I've been a major screw-up all week. I can't stop eating!
So it's time for a good old party time fast. It's 1pm, and I haven't eaten anything today and I'm going to try and keep that up until Monday @ 8am. So 120 hours without food. We;ll see if I can make it...
So here's the plan,
I'll need to clear out my system so I took a natural laxative (Cascara Sagrada) last night, and I'll take it again tonight.
I take a heavy dose of vitamins every morning to help prevent cravings and binges. (I'll put up a complete list of these later)
I'll drink at least 4 bottles of water everyday. (16 ounce bottles)
I'll stay on a strict sleep schedule. (Not sure of those details yet. I'll post them later)
I'll also go through a 20 minute Winsor Pilates routine in the morning, and walk for at least 30 minutes at night.
Sound doable? It does to me but I know that I'm going to be exhausted and moody and I'm not looking forward to that aspect. It's all worth it though to see the number on that scale getting smaller and smaller. :)
Wish me luck! xoxo